Victorialand

2010-10-03T19:22:00.002+02:00

The blog has moved to http://www.inmost-light.com/
See you there!

Victoria:)

2010-09-08T18:02:00.005+03:00

..Serenades and suicides
orchestras and genocides
despite all they do and say
love is here to stay..

Sol Invictus, from the album "Thrones" (2002)

2010-09-07T00:23:00.004+03:00

In a dream I am standing,

At the entrance to a forest,

Here there are constructed,

Numberless arches that radiate light,

When I pass through them at night,

My body floats gently into the air,

At this precise moment,

When I am on the cusp of sleep,

My shadow vanishes,

And with it my weight.

Rudi Arapahoe, from the album "Echoes From One To Another"

Pearl and the Ghostmaker

2010-08-31T19:21:00.006+03:00

from "Torchwood BBC Original Television Soundtrack"

2010-08-25T21:44:00.001+03:00

2010-07-21T23:47:00.003+03:00

From the album "Untitled" by Current 93 - Michael Cashmore - Christoph Heemann (1999)

untitled

2010-07-21T23:16:00.004+03:00

From the album "Untitled" by Current 93 - Michael Cashmore - Christoph Heemann (1999)

Gattaca

2010-07-05T20:30:00.004+03:00

Chime the Night

2010-05-02T22:37:00.004+03:00

Chime the night, chime the day
Those that hide, those that fight
Shroud the day, light the night
Praise the wrong and curse the right

Fields of green, fields of dust
Swords of steel, to bloody rust
Those betrayed are those that trust
What to do? What we must!

Chime the day, chime the night
Chime the day, chime the night

Hear the lies of a cold state
Breed us all as carrion bait
Move the figures on the board
See the puppets see the cord

Is there hope, i see none
The race that's lost cannot be won
Ride the wolf, it bares its teeth
Pick the flower, lay the wreath

Chime the day, chime the night..

Sol Invictus “Chime The Night”, from the album "The Hill Of Crosses", 2000

Loss

2010-04-15T20:49:00.002+03:00

suffocation of silence grows, only she knows..

Sally Doherty & the Sumacs, from the album "On the Outside"

Hagalaz

2010-04-13T15:25:00.004+03:00

Matt Howden & Tony Wakeford, from the album "Three Nine" (2000)

(England) is always better (as you're pulling away)

2010-03-20T14:42:00.004+02:00

Tears for the weddings, smiles for the funeral
Stay in the car, you know you’re not as useful as you were
Oh, what now?

Piano magic,
from the album "Part-Monster" (2007)

The Sixth Station

2010-02-02T19:51:00.000+02:00

Echoes From One To Another

2010-01-30T18:43:00.002+02:00

Rudi Arapahoe, from the album "Echoes From One To Another"

what your soul sings

2010-01-17T21:12:00.005+02:00

Don't be afraid
Open your mouth and say
Say what your soul sings to you
Your mind can never change
Unless you ask it to
Lovingly re-arrange
The thoughts that make you blue
The things that bring you down
Only do harm to you
So make your choice joy
The joy belongs to you
And when you do
You'll find the one you love is you
You'll find you love you

Don't be ashamed
To open your heart and pray
Say what your soul sings
To you
So no longer pretend
That you can't feel it near
That tickle on your head
That tingle in your ear
Oh ask it anything
Because it loves you dear
It's your most precious king
If only you could hear
And when you do
You'll find the one you need is you
You'll find you love you

Massive Attack - what your soul sings Massive Attack - from the album "100th Window" (2003)

My face and your face tenderly renewed..

2010-01-11T20:50:00.001+02:00

i got kissed by a turtle dove
upon a cold Paris manger
i was waking up to my love,
first moment dawning danger

everything was new
every sock and shoe
my face and your face tenderly renewed

i awoke to find a whiteness inside
everything did shine, slyly, from each body
halos from within, diamonds the year in
as we crossed to where the virgin mary moves over the fields
here and there, she kneels
sighing sweet relief upon the prairie

everything was new
every sock and shoe
my face and your face tenderly renewed

as the rich winds blow,
kiss each flamingo,
tussle reckless trains of the wild white horses
and at night the owl streaks the field and howls
She seizes a kitten,
stops wind aghast to hear them shudder

everything was new
every sock and shoe
my face and your face tenderly renewed

Christina's Farm - Antony & The Metropole Orchestra, Live at Carré 21st of June 2009
i don't have any image angelic enough to describe this song, so here is Antony itself:)

Waltz In The 4th Dimension

2010-01-10T18:37:00.003+02:00

Antony and the Johnsons - Crazy in love

2010-01-10T09:59:00.001+02:00

UPD:
http://rapidshare.com/files/251784693/Antony___The_Metropole_Orchestra_-_Live_at_Carr__21st_of_June_2009_Full_concert.part1.rar

http://rapidshare.com/files/251786605/Antony___The_Metropole_Orchestra_-_Live_at_Carr__21st_of_June_2009_Full_concert.part2.rar

Plus grandir

2010-01-07T23:08:00.002+02:00

i love you, Mylene of the 90s..

2010-01-06T22:56:00.002+02:00

Steve Baker & Carmen Dave - For Whom The Bell Tolls, from "Donnie Darko" OST (2004)

How to bring a blush to the snow

2010-01-04T19:21:00.002+02:00

Cocteau Twins, from the album "Victorialand" (1986)

Where the long shadows fall

2009-12-03T23:10:00.002+02:00

though i walk through valley after valley after valley
and find only shadows
though i walk and find only shadow
the sun falls behind the yew bushes
i young in different shapes stand next to them
the old chapel is to my right
the shadows then lengthen and there again the long shadows fall

when i saw the shadows and starres fall around me..
as a boy
i knew this world
all we see
be
and are
is imperium
Empire of Nothing

Sanvean

2009-11-19T18:25:00.000+02:00

Fjöll Í Austri Fagurblá

2009-11-18T20:57:00.003+02:00

Fjöll í austri fagurblá
freista dalabarnsins.
Ungur fylgir æskuþrá
upp til jökulhjarnsins.

Sveimað heimahögum frá
hef ég vors á degi,
víða stíða þræddi þá
þunga hraunavegi.

Heiðin breiða hugumkær
hvetur viljann ofar.
Leiðin seiðir, fráum fær,
fögrum sýnum lofar.

Gangan sækist öruggt enn
urðarróti móti.
Einatt hlutu heiðamenn
höggvinn fót á grjóti.

Hver, sem ofar á að ná,
einskis metið getur
þótt í fangið fái sá
fjúk og hretið betur.

Anda heitum yndi nóg
unaðsreitir geyma.
Seinna leitar þráin þó
þinna sveita heima.

Tranclation from here: http://forums.skadi.net/showthread.php?t=42532

Wonderful blue mountains in the East
luring the children of the dale.
Following the juvenile longing
Up to the glacier’s top.

Floating I was from my home
On a spring day
Small paths I went over
Pathless lava.

The beloved wide heathland
Spured my will to get up high
The enchanting way, safe to walk,
Promising a great view.

Safe the walk goes on
Through raw rocks.
Always wanderer got injured
On this rocks.

Everyone who can get higher
This will not bother
Even when hard wind blows in his face
And hail storms are coming down.

The plagued mind will be rewarded
By the loveliness offered by resting places.
But later the yearning calls
you back to your home.

Steindór Andersen (singing) and Sigur Rós, from the album "Rimur" (2001)

2009-11-17T19:28:00.003+02:00

Clan of Xymox, from the album "Medusa" (1986)

2009-09-30T05:11:00.000+02:00

Я не много понимаю в поэзии, и редко попадаются стихи, которые действительно близки, и тем приятней их находить:
http://tiny-voice.livejournal.com/

Не беспокойся, не пускай слюни
У нас все будет хорошо
Все у нас будет
Достопримечательно
Привито
С аккуратным гравием вокруг наших речей
С белыми бордюрами вдоль наших прикосновений
С ослепительными сказками
С удивительными глазками
Наших котов
Наших дверей
Наших скупых откровений

Белый Бим
Беглый шум
Надежда в кульке навынос
Продление жизни на десять немыслимых кадров
На полках – изобилие
В головах – сироп и кисель
И забвение в потайных кармашках
Отчуждение в чрезвычайных экранах
Да хранит нас огонь
Во имя себя, и близких, и бродячих туфель

Я бы тронул рукою
Гладь невозможную
Неописуемую тишину
Непобедимую дремоту
Неистощимую надежду на подарки
Неистребимое желание борьбы с пространством
Мы висим, как рубашка на теле
Читаем новости, смотрим телик
Вгрызаемся зубами в календарь
Поднимаем якоря, заползаем в космос
Нещадно движемся навстречу времени, словам, губам, тележкам с картошкой
Во тьме теряем след
И носом не ведем, когда пора
Когда уже полна жопа
Когда уже поздно свистеть сквозь невечные зубы
Дымовые трубы
Играют зашторенный марш

Спустись ко мне
Сгори в моей груди
Будь моим сердцем
Стань моим донором, ну же!
Покури, соберись, и войди
В зал из невиданных красок
В терем из сосудов и артерий
В храм из вывернутого настежь нутра
Видишь зеленый? Пора!
Беги по полоскам
Заткнись и беги
С глазами и без них
С ушами навыпуск
С языком на взводе
С метелью внутри
И всегда и ваще
И не плачь

Dear Darkness

2009-09-24T18:56:00.001+03:00

Dear darkness
Dear darkness
Won't you cover, cover
Me again?

Dear darkness
Dear
I've been your friend
For many years

Won't you do this for me?
Dearest darkness
And cover me from the sun

And the words tightening
The words are tightening
Around my throat

And, and...

Around the throat of the one I love
Tightening, tightening, tightening
Around the throat of the one I love
Tightening, tightening, tightening

Dear darkness
Dear darkness
Now it's your time to look after us
'Cause we kept you clothed
We kept in business
When everyone else was having good luck

So now it's your time
Time to pay
To pay me and the one I love
With the worldly goods you've stashed away
With all the things you
Took from us

P.J. Harvey, from the album "White Chalk" (2007)

A Most Peculiar Man

2009-09-24T01:21:00.001+03:00

He was a most peculiar man.
That's what Mrs. Riordan said and she should know;
She lived upstairs from him
She said he was a most peculiar man.

He was a most peculiar man.
He lived all alone within a house,
Within a room, within himself,
A most peculiar man.

He had no friends, he seldom spoke
And no one in turn ever spoke to him,
'Cause he wasn't friendly and he didn't care
And he wasn't like them.
Oh, no! he was a most peculiar man.

He died last Saturday.
He turned on the gas and he went to sleep
With the windows closed so he'd never wake up
To his silent world and his tiny room;
And Mrs. Riordan says he has a brother somewhere
Who should be notified soon.
And all the people said, "What a shame that he's dead,
But wasn't he a most peculiar man?"

Kings of Convenience, from live at Passionskirche, Berlin, 12 August 2004
Simon And Garfunkel cover

Gold in the air of summer

2009-09-23T02:58:00.001+03:00

*..You'll shine like gold in the air of the summer..*

Kings of Convenience, from live in Rome, Italy, May 2001

Leaning against the wall

2009-09-22T01:17:00.001+03:00

Your eyes are cold
I know you'll tell me all

Not to fall I lean against the wall

I'm on the floor
Not listening anymore

I should have known
The things to which you're prone
(You cross your arms
And tell no lies
A thousand thoughts run
Through my mind
A thousand words that I don't need
I never thought you could do this)

I should have known
The things to which you're prone
(You cross your arms
And tell no lies
A thousand thoughts run
Through my mind
A thousand words that I don't need
I never thought you could do this)

Your eyes are cold
I know you'll tell me all
Not to fall
I lean against the wall

Kings of Convenience, from the album "Quiet Is The New Loud" (2003)

"Found songs"

2009-09-15T22:13:00.000+03:00

my photo is in a booklet of Ólafur Arnalds's new album "Found songs":)
Day I, Erla's Waltz
Here are some photos of CD and Vinyl booklets:

lovely tee, Ólafur sent to me as well:)

Riverdeadbank

2009-09-03T01:12:00.002+03:00

Like dust
I'm lost in the world
I thought that I had
Had a place
Between the heavens and the earth
Between the starred sky

I feel the crunch of dirt
I smell the scent of flowers
My aimless feet
To be in the world
And not a part of it
That's the aim of the pain
That's the aim
I'm sorry that there seems
No happiness in life
I'm sorry that there seems
No one
Passing streams
Dying dreams
There seems to be no joy
There seems to be no joy

You cannot see the ships sailing
You cannot see the sails sailing
Amassing as Christ on the horizon
Outstretched
Outstretched...

Current 93, from the album "Thunder Perfect Mind" (1992)

Mary

2009-08-31T23:53:00.004+03:00

Do you recognize me
Here on this sleeper train
And do you feel the pain
Growing into the night, Mary
And I can feel the taste
Of your third birthday cake
Remember how it was
To hold you into my arms, Mary
It was there
The summer lights around
I was there
His hand upon my knees
And we're gone
Across these sunny streets
And we're gone
The day you died, Mary
And we go faster now
Together throught the fields
Here on this sleeper train
And I can touch your face, Mary
The precious things we've done
Hidden under my skin
I let you sleep a while
I let you sleep a while, Mary
It was there
The summer lights around
I was there
His hand upon my knees
And we're gone
Across this sunny streets
And we're gone
The day you died, Mary

Yann Tiersen, "Mary", vocal by Elizabeth Fraser
from the album "Les Retrouvailles" (2005)

2009-08-31T00:10:00.003+03:00

Madredeus, "O Paraiso", from the album "Antologia"

2009-08-30T23:43:00.003+03:00

Madredeus, "A Vaca De Fogo", from the album "Antologia"

2009-08-11T00:49:00.006+03:00

"..Да, в природе нет ничего реального,только мерцающий флер видений, трепет переменчивых фигур и пятен света. Он говорил ей, что есть лишь одна сущность, одна наука, одна религия - и назвал ей это великое слово.

Он говорил, что внешний мир - не что иное, как игра светотени, которая то скрывает, то обнаруживает истину. И теперь она в этом убедилась.

Он говорил ей, что восторг души - это путь проявления невыразимых тайн того мира, который выше разума, который постигается только чувством, - и теперь она в это верила.

"Королевство туманное мы покидаем, и дом твой разрушен.
Почему ты сказал что я сбился с пути?"

Артур Мейчен, "Розовый сад"

The first five minutes after death

2009-08-09T21:57:00.004+03:00

Coil, from the album "Horse Rotorvator" (1986)

Let us go to the rose

2009-07-31T15:16:00.001+03:00

Mignonne allons voir si la rose
qui ce matin avait declose
sa robe de poupre au soleil
a point perdu cette vepree
les plis de sa robe pourpree
et son teint au votre pareil

las! voyez comme en peu d'espace
mignonne elle a dessus la place
las! las! ses beautes laisse choir!
o vraiment maratre est Nature
puisqu'une telle fleur ne dure
que du matin jusques au soir!

donc si vous me croyez mignonne
tandis que votre age fleuronne
en sa plus verte nouveaute
cueillez cueillez votre jeunesse:
comme a cette fleur la vieillesse
fera ternir votre beaute

I really don't care...

2009-06-20T00:04:00.005+03:00

I've seen it all, I have seen the trees,
I've seen the willow leaves dancing in the breeze
I've seen a man killed by his best friend,
And lives that were over before they were spent.
I've seen what I was - I know what I'll be
I've seen it all - there is no more to see!

You haven't seen elephants, kings or Peru!
I'm happy to say I had better to do
What about China? Have you seen the Great Wall?
All walls are great, if the roof doesn't fall!

And the man you will marry?
The home you will share?
To be honest, I really don't care...

You've never been to Niagara Falls?
I have seen water, its water, that's all...
The Eiffel Tower, the Empire State?
My pulse was as high on my very first date!
Your grandson's hand as he plays with your hair?
To be honest, I really don't care...

I've seen it all, I've seen the dark
I've seen the brightness in one little spark.
I've seen what I chose and I've seen what I need,
And that is enough, to want more would be greed.
I've seen what I was and I know what I'll be
I've seen it all - there is no more to see!

You've seen it all and all you have seen
You can always review on your own little screen
The light and the dark, the big and the small
Just keep in mind - you need no more at all
You've seen what you were and know what you'll be
You've seen it all - there is no more to see!

Bjork, from the album "SelmaSongs" (2000)

Undo

2009-06-15T23:35:00.006+03:00

If you're bleeding - Undo

If you're crying - Undo

Oh I
Unravel

Watching the Horses

2009-06-05T19:25:00.003+03:00

Follow the horses – whitemoon faces,
Float darkly towards us - whitemoon faces
Clasp to the zest, dying sound..sound
Follow the horses, shimmering bodies
Entwining our soft hands, shimmering bodies
Clasp to the zest of the dying sound...sound

Sally Doherty & the Sumacs, from the album "Sleepy Memory"

2009-05-27T00:09:00.005+03:00

First Witchwords

Second Witchwords

Sieben, from the album "Forbid The Sun's Escape" (1999)
enchanting vocals by Sally Doherty and Jane Howden.

a Fountain of Youth..

2009-05-25T00:49:00.005+03:00

I would suffer less, if you took my hand
lead me through the garden of time
the flowers we'll pick - they will be mine for a while
We'll be a fountain of youth
our waters showing infinite truth..

Sieben, from the album "Forbid The Sun's Escape" (1999)
enchanting vocals by Sally Doherty.

Barley

2009-05-22T22:43:00.003+03:00

Sieben, from the album "Forbid The Sun's Escape" (1999)
enchanting vocals by Sally Doherty and Jane Howden.

the thrill is gone

2009-05-21T21:56:00.006+03:00

The thrill is gone
The thrill is gone
I can see it in your eyes,
I can hear it in your sighs
Feel your touch and realize
The thrill is gone.

The nights are cold,
For love is old,
Love was grand when love was new,
Birds were singin', skies were blue,
Now it don't appeal to you..
The thrill is gone.

This is the end,
So why pretend
And let it linger on?
The thrill is gone.

Sol Invictus, from the album - "Thrones" (2002)
Vocals - Sally Doherty

Beware the Touch

2009-05-08T23:18:00.002+03:00

Hannah Fury, from the album "Through The Gash" (2007)

here before..

2009-05-05T00:05:00.003+03:00

Vashti Bunyan, from the album "Lookaftering" (2005)

2009-05-04T22:45:00.000+03:00

one of the most beautiful videos ever..

Lost Paradise

2009-04-26T23:18:00.006+03:00

Here is lost paradise
It's here, it's here
Lost paradise, it's here
It's here
Lost paradise, it's here

It's the toy
Broken in the sad child's hand
The one loved so dear
The one like gold
It's a sudden end to childhood's wonderland
A spring that's swiftly grown too old

Here is lost paradise
It's here, it's here
Lost paradise it's here
It's here
Lost paradise it's here

It's the last kiss
That's faded on our lips
From a first love
That quickly parted
One praises to the sky
On our knees in worship
And there we're left
Broken hearted

It's that which escapes us
In the course of our lives
That cannot be retained
With no remembrance
It's only melancholy that survives
Through our painful resonance

It's happiness which passes
And leaves us behind
We couldn't hold it for
It was too whole
We couldn't follow our confidence
Undermined for fear of sinking
Being out of control

Here is lost paradise
It's here, it's here
Lost paradise it's here
It's here
Lost paradise it's here

It's a sleepy town
On the edge of the frontier
It's a dead letter
One has read too late
It's the last love that one believes
Sincere, a failed rendezvous
That would have sealed our fate

Here is lost paradise
It's here, it's here
Lost paradise it's here
It's here
Lost paradise it's here

The Lifesucker

2009-04-24T22:38:00.005+03:00

..A talon stretches east, and a claw's extending west. Spider's crawling 'round his eyes. Eagle tattooed on his chest, he looks a mess. Skin and bone. Too many nights alone. He's staring at the phone, it never rings. And he lights candles, red and orange. Calls her name, she 's there. He's there, he's flying. Swear I heard her wicked laugh. He snapped a photograph. Her fingers clutched around his heart. And squeezing , Teasing triumph in her eyes. What a way to die. Another sucker for the life sucker..

(Sing while you may)

Jardin Du Luxembourg

2009-04-23T00:43:00.002+03:00

Tony Wakeford, from the album "Cupid & Death" (1996)

Song Of The Flower

2009-04-21T21:45:00.009+03:00

When the hurt shall bring you woe,
God made the healing herb to grow

A bloom on the tree
When the apples are ripe
Means the end
Of somebody's life

Ash when green
Is fuel for a Queen

The Michaelmas daisy
Among dead leaves
Blooms for St. Micheal's
Valorous deeds

In dock, out nettle,
Don't let the blood settle

Elder tree, Elder tree,
Crocked, wrong
Never straight
And never strong
Never bush
And never tree,
Since our Lord
Was nailed to thee

Under a thron,
Our saviour was born

If the sagebrush
Thrives and grows,
The master's not master
-and he knows!

St. Agnes, that's to lovers kind,
Come ease the trouble of my mind

Elm dogrieve, Oak do hate
Willow do walk; If you travels late

Sol Invictus, from the album "In A Garden Green" (1999)
this is a real dark folk in my opinion - traditional, folklore inspired lyrics, with a sharp, strong and threatening music line.

Come the morning

2009-04-21T01:34:00.004+03:00

The world and all its angels,
Talking in my head
The world and all its angels,
Lay upon my bed
The world and all its angels,
Set table for a feast
The world and all its angels,
Come to toast the suckling beast

Come the morning
By the dawning light
Such crimes and stories
Behold the wondous sights

The world and all its madmen,
Tremple and makes signs,
The world and all its madmen,
In a kingdom for the blind
The world and all its madmen,
Scribble endless lists
The world and all its madmen
Phantoms in the mist

Come the morning
By the dawning light
Such crimes and stories
Behold the wondrous sights

The world and all its people,
Die for dollars and for dimes.
The world and all its people
Just seem a waste of time
The world and all its people,
They never learn a thing
The world and all its people,
Just lepers beneath the skin

Come the morning
By the dawning light
Such crimes and stories
Behold the wondrous sights

Odin's raven magic video

2009-04-06T14:34:00.003+03:00

I added on Youtube an excerpt from "Screaming masterpiece" - a 2005 documentary film directed and written by Ari Alexander Ergis Magnússon about the music scene in Iceland.
A part about "Odin's raven magic", you can see there how they play on that amazing ancient stone marimba.

and also an awesome live video found on Youtube

Odin's raven magic

2009-04-06T00:34:00.005+03:00

Sigur Rós & Hilmar Örn Hilmarsson - Odin's raven magic (Live at the Barbican Hall 21-04-02)

A magnificent performance by Sigur Rós & Hilmar Örn Hilmarsson, accompanied by a string and brass orchestra and choir, as well as Steindor Andersen, chanting the 13th century icelandic poem "Odin's raven magic", upon which the piece is based.

Hilmar Örn Hilmarsson: "We never really made the transition to the modern world. So we are much more in touch with the occult - the invisible is so much with us. That is why Iceland is one of the spiritual centres of the world""

;-)

Download the whole record:
http://www.divshare.com/download/7021289-f70

Magical..

2009-04-04T12:46:00.000+03:00

All is full of Love

2009-04-04T00:33:00.003+03:00

c;">You'll be given love
You'll be taken care of
You'll be given love
You have to trust it

Maybe not from the sources
You have poured yours
Maybe not from the directions
You are staring at

Twist your head around
It's all around you
All is full of love
All around you

All is full of love
You just ain't receiving
All is full of love
Your phone is off the hook
All is full of love
Your doors are all shut
All is full of love!

All is full of love..

Bjork, from the album "Homogenic" (1997)

Sigur Ros & Bjork:)

2009-04-03T21:26:00.001+03:00

So cheerful:)!

2009-03-29T23:21:00.006+03:00

Time slips by in lines, and parades are slowing down, the flowing gown. Now thread bare. Locked up in the cupboard with the yellow photographs, she hasn't seen for years. Mirrors lie. The ring has blackened round her little finger. She'd like to cut it off and float back to the summer when she still believed in love, still believed in love. Still believed in love.

The Legendary Pink Dots, from the album "Stained Glass, Soma Fountains" (1997)

Premonition

2009-03-29T14:55:00.005+03:00

(She said, "no complications...I've been hurt too many times before
and each time, well it gets a little harder - I'll hurt you if you stay
for more. (she said....) She said : "it was different last night; You
were a tiger on the prowl. You had claws - but they snapped. You don't
attract me now. She said, "Don't bother phoning ; I'd slam the receiver
right down. Well, I just want to be alone you know these days.....)
Somewhere someone's laughing.

the legendary pink dots, from the album "the Lovers"

Come, i shall show you where dreams go to, when they die

2009-03-27T13:06:00.004+03:00

..all around you is the warm bluegreen breath of heavens
do not fear
around you is the vast blueblack space of stars
do not fear
this is the great ocean
on which the endless waves crash down
God is not dead
there is no death i say
(come i shall show you where dreams go to when they die)..

Current 93, from the album "Of Ruine Or Some Blazing Starre" (1994)

Well I Wonder

2009-03-22T19:13:00.004+02:00

Well I wonder
Do you hear me when you sleep?
I hoarsely cry
Oh...

Well I wonder
Do you see me when we pass?
I half die...
Oh...

Please keep me in mind
Please keep me in mind

Gasping - but somehow still alive
This is the fierce last stand of all I am

Gasping - dying - but somehow still alive
This is the final stand of all I am

Please keep me in mind

Well I wonder
Well I wonder
Please keep me in mind
Keep me in mind
Keep me in mind..

the Smiths, from the album "Meat Is Murder" (1985)

Birthday giveaway!

2009-03-21T20:13:00.002+02:00

(Today, with my birthday present - Polaroid!!)

Celebrating my 100-th post here and a birthday today!
It's time to give some presents:)

For the first 3 peple who'll comment on this post,
i'll send a small 5x7 print of one of my photographs (you can pick which one you like:)

Je te rends ton amour

2009-03-20T00:37:00.001+02:00

2009-03-19T21:57:00.004+02:00

..Mets ton âme de lumière
Et tournoie..

Mylene Farmer, from the album "Anamorphosee" (1995)

I have moved into the shadow

2009-03-15T23:10:00.004+02:00

..In letters from my sister, she asks me how I’m feeling
I say that I am better, but I lie in every letter
I have moved into the margin, I have moved into the shadow
Move closer to the fire, or else you’ll meet the ghost
I loved you like a brother, I loved you more than most
But still you left me vacant, still you left me cold..

Piano Magic, from "Incurable" EP

The Dress

2009-03-05T21:39:00.003+02:00

Tears you see on my face, you do have something to do with
Fear starts creeping up when you have so much to lose
Your love waits you while you're cheating
Lightning strikes you when you're moving

The light you see in my eyes, you do have something to do with
Play the game namely love, play it like you have nothing to lose
Horse loves you when you move with him
People hate you when you're changing

Don't let the dress trick you
I love you less now that I know you
I won't count the scars again
I love you less now that I know you

The glow you see on my face, you do have something to do with
Fear starts creeping up when you have so much to lose
Your love wait you while you're cheating
Lighting strikes you when you're moving

Don't let me wonder away
I love you less now that I know you
Don't let the dress trick you
I love you less now that I know you

I won't count the scars again
Because I love you..

Blonde Redhead, from the album "23" (2007)

Could I stay the honest one?

2009-03-04T20:45:00.005+02:00

if your words lodged within me
burning streamers... how could i stay
the honest one? harbouring these feelings
...engulfing me

burn my memories... your tears the ultimate
beauty... so deceived, by honesty

similar needs, similar traits...
a fear of being turned against, so hard to open...
desire... desire... lose this fear; reveal my heart to you

remain in this house as the walls tumble down
my faith swirling round... my faith swirling round...
maybe this all reveals..
within each other have we found our spirit..?

Black Tape For A Blue Girl, from the album "A Chaos of Desire" (1991)

The Biggest Lie

2009-03-04T15:10:00.005+02:00

She said, "It's ok - you'll feel better every day
and all memory of this will fade away"
And that's the biggest lie and I just wonder why
when love dissolves we don't all just die
I sat by the lake when everyone had gone home,
nothing on my body but the sadness I had on
I felt death's elbow nudging at my ribs, telling me to let go -
I don't deserve to live
She said, "It's ok - you'll feel better every day
and all memory of this will fade away"
And that's the biggest lie and I just wonder why
when love dissolves we don't all just die
Liar

Piano Magic, from the album "Seasonally Affective"

The Lake

2009-03-01T15:58:00.002+02:00

In youth's spring, it was my lot
To haunt of the wide earth a spot
To which I could not love the less
So lovely was the loneliness
Of a wild lake, with black rock bound
And the tall trees that towered around

But when the night had thrown her pall
Upon that spot as upon all
And the wind would pass me by
In its stilly melody

My infant spirit would awake
To the terror of the lone lake
My infant spirit would awake
To the terror of the lone lake

Yet that terror was not fright
But a tremulous delight
And a feeling undefined
Springing from a darkened mind
Death was in that poisoned wave
And in its gulf a fitting grave
For him who thence could solace bring
To his dark imagining
Whose wildering though could even make
An Eden of that dim lake

But when the night had thrown her pall
Upon that spot as upon all
And the wind would pass me by
In its stilly melody

My infant spirit would awake
To the terror of the lone lake
My infant spirit would awake
To the terror of the lone lake

Springing from a darkened mind
So lovely was the loneliness
In youth's spring, it was my lot
In its stilly melody
An Eden of that dim lake
An Eden of that dim lake
Lone, lone, lonely...

Antony And The Johnsons, from the album "Live At St.Olave's Church" (split with Current 93) (2003)

Zero zero

2009-02-28T11:43:00.002+02:00

We checked out all the prophecies. We studied fat philosophies.
We made a graph... We chanted ooooommmmm
"ommni Padhni Disney Iceman Acme leary Marx Illuminatus Christus Clarke..."
We'd watch for saucers in the dark. We'd hunt lost arks;
tried splitting quarks - when all we wanted was a Mark.
Just a something proving something's out there.
Are you listening? No chance.

There never is a way without a why. Do we return after we die?
Is life a circle? Are we hurtled headfirst into space?
Will we wind up as the bunch of grapes that makes the wine...
that Christ exchanged for water. Are we blood? Are we lime? Do you live?
We need a sign - is anybody there? Are you listening? No chance.

And still the statues cry, the queen bee flies...
we try our damndest to explain the reasons why and how and when and where...
we're getting nowhere. No doors deep inside this corridor
of space and time... if space and time exist.
Oh we'll persist, if we exist. Are you listening? No chance..

The Legendary Pink Dots, from the album "Shadow Weaver" (1992)

Where I end and You begin. (The Sky is falling in.)

2009-02-25T00:31:00.003+02:00

There's a gap in between
There's a gap where we meet
Where I end and you begin

And I'm sorry for us
The dinosaurs roam the earth
The sky turns green
Where I end and you begin

I'm up in the clouds
I'm up in the clouds
And I can't and I can't come down

I can watch and not take part
Where I end and where you start
Where you, you left me alone
You left me alone

X'll mark the place
Like the parting of the waves
Like a house falling in the sea
In the sea

I will eat you alive
and There'll be no more lies

Radiohead, from the album "Hail to the Thief" (2003)

Stardust

2009-02-24T16:48:00.002+02:00

The Daysleepers, from the album "The Soft Attack" (2006)

Dreaming

2009-02-21T13:38:00.003+02:00

Olafur Arnalds, from the album "Eulogy for Evolution"

The Inmost Night

2009-02-19T19:54:00.010+02:00

..when i stand there at the piled bloodcamp
again i flick open the inner eye
if you too open your eyes you shall see
the entire sky filled with weeping angels
the entire heaven filled with weeping angels
and the centralsun and sum of all
God too weeping..

Current 93, from the album "All The Pretty Little Horses (The Inmost Light)" (1996)

***

2009-02-15T00:44:00.007+02:00

i want to fade away with the last rays of the sun, born again in a morning dew drops, watch the world through the deer eyes,
i want to be weightless as a dove's feather,
i want to start my life each day from the beginning
to be no one, to be everything
the smallest particles, atoms, the Brahman
i don't want to be a human
if i really am a part of Him now, why is it so hard to feel this? So hard to feel this weightless unity, so hard to keep living..

Kings of Convenience

2009-02-13T23:53:00.005+02:00

Favourite time, favourite mood, favourite music..

Kings of Convenience - Live at The Triple Door, Seattle, 13.03.05
Very warm and cozy concert, including Leslie Feist on some songs. Their voices sound perfect together.

download link:
http://www.divshare.com/download/6550031-89d

Forever hold my breath..

2009-02-13T13:00:00.004+02:00

Harold Budd & Clive Wright, from "A Song For Lost Blossoms" (2008)

.. how?..

2009-02-10T20:45:00.006+02:00

..the remains of what we used to have were taken away with the softest squeeze
how did i forget?.. how?..

a momentary spakle of absolute sadness, pouring tears, breathtaking memories, i do not want to die, never forget

Ólafur Arnalds, from "Variations Of Static" (2008)

Step Aside

2009-02-10T16:07:00.003+02:00

Efterklang, from the album "Tripper" (2004)

You can never get lost (when you’ve nowhere to go)

2009-02-09T15:43:00.004+02:00

I know nothing of tides
and I’m confused by the stars
but you can never get lost
when you’ve nowhere to go.
And I’ve got space in my heart
for the next twenty years
so don’t think there’s a rush -
just come on over sometime.
And I will haunt myself blind,
only sleep when I’m bored.
And I will talk into space.
And I will worry this house.
And I’ve got space in my heart
for the next twenty years
so don’t think there’s a rush -
just come on over sometime..

Efterklang

2009-02-08T10:14:00.005+02:00

Absolutely charming danish band!
i discovered them today by chance, via Last.fm upcoming shows, (i've noticed the word post-rock;)
Scandinavian post-rock\shoegazing groups are always something special, they have such very intimate heart-warming effect;)

they performing 12.02 on c.sides Festival, in Caliph Club (Hazorfim 33, old Yafo),
Besides, it's almost near my home:)
I'll be there!

the song is from their album "Parades" (2007)

Sweet Autumn

2009-02-08T01:09:00.003+02:00

Faraway..

Ashram, from the album "Ashram" (2001)

In a manner of speaking

2009-02-06T19:27:00.004+02:00

In a manner of speaking
I just want to say
That I could never forget the way
You told me everything
By saying nothing

In a manner of speaking
I don't understand
How love in silence becomes reprimand
But the way that i feel about you
Is beyond words

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

In a manner of speaking
Semantics won't do
In this life that we live we only make do
And the way that we feel
Might have to be sacrificed

So in a manner of speaking
I just want to say
That just like you I should find a way
To tell you everything
By saying nothing.

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

Original song by Tuxedomoon, cover by Nouvelle Vague

The thinner the air

2009-02-03T22:58:00.003+02:00

from the album "Victorialand" (1986)

Weather inside - Snowfall soon

2009-02-03T10:22:00.008+02:00

..I have a photograph - mid-heaven, post-laughter
Eyes shine ridiculous - illuminate the both of us
In the fold of a camera's eye, in the time it takes to sigh
I open up an ashen heart, pour out a thousand whys
Handle with care if only you dare,
I'm sensitive, touch sensitive
Handle with care if only you dare
I'm sensitive, touch sensitive..

Piano Magic, from the album "Low Birth Weight" (1999)

Fluorescences

2009-02-02T18:52:00.004+02:00

i'm ok
i feel good
i can breathe
fill my soul
i'm ok
feeling good
why do i
swim in blood?

When I feel happy, i'm listening to Stereolab, they make a good mood even better!
Yesterday night, after yoga lesson, I was standing on a bus stop, listening to this song, and *almost* dancing, and smiling, and passing people were smiling back to me, so good..

From the album "Oscillons From The Anti-Sun" (2005)

2009-01-31T18:36:00.006+02:00

MUSIC: Elektroherd “Der Erste Mai” (2008)
VIDEO: by dear friend Hardrain19
http://proxy19.wordpress.com/
I participated in shooting pics and as a model:)

Pink Orange Red

2009-01-30T21:44:00.000+02:00

I can't take my eyes of Her face..

Feeling disturbance inside

2009-01-30T14:35:00.007+02:00

Oh Boy Harpsichord
by Current 93
from the album "I Am Black Ship" (2006)

The Teeth Of The Winds Of The Sea

2009-01-29T23:20:00.004+02:00

..Why I have failed?
And all I could have been
And am not
And all I had hoped for
And were not
And everything I hoped
And hoped and hoped and hoped for
I prayed in the morning
And I prayed in the evening
And I got not
From the rotgut God
When all the world starts to shiver
And shimmer and shake all around me
And all the world light was piecemeal and peaceless
This is the atomic pain of the world
The molecular tears
The final crystalline structure of misery
That wind it's way around the wooden snakejawed growing spine
Of the worlds..

Current 93 from "Of Ruine Or Some Blazing Starre" (1994)

Dial: Revenge

2009-01-28T21:54:00.003+02:00

Mogwai, from the album "Rock Action"(2000)
One of the songs that changed my life,
from first "Atmosphere"

Turning back

2009-01-27T15:12:00.004+02:00

Indifference is the hardest blow
It is the wind and icy snow
That falls on green shoots as they grow
In winter when the spring's too slow

Indifference is the coldest hand
It is the wave that clears the sand
Of castles built by baby hands
Before the gulls come in to land

Indifference is the hardest ground
It is the stony silent sound
Of plainsong echoing unfound
Until the voices have left town..

Vashti Bunyan, from the album "Lookaftering" (2005)

Blood of Solitude

2009-01-23T20:27:00.005+02:00

Blood of Solitude I

Blood of Solitude II

Nature And Organisation "Beauty Reaps The Blood Of Solitude" (1994)

לא

2009-01-22T01:40:00.002+02:00

HaIvrit העברית
From the album "חיי הזהר של תל אביב" ("The High Life of Tel-Aviv")
(2006)

turn on the Bright Lights

2009-01-20T20:28:00.005+02:00

It's up to me now turn on the Bright Lights

(got to be some more change in my life)

oh, It's up to me now turn on my Bright Lights

2009-01-18T22:04:00.007+02:00

Same but different

2009-01-17T17:53:00.005+02:00

I'm in a boat
On the sea
And I see
You on the shore
So sure
Of yourself

You're in a boat
On the sea
And you see
Me on the shore
So sure
Of myself

We're in a boat
All at sea
And we see
We are the same
The same
But different

Vashti Bunyan, from the album "Lookaftering" (2005)

Window over the bay..

2009-01-17T16:35:00.004+02:00

I wish i had a window over the bay
And a black horse grazing on the green all day
I wish i had a well to draw my water from
And a warm log fire for when the summer is gone

I wish i had a window over the bay
And a flock of white sheep to watch from where i lay
I wish i had a little boat bobbing on the deep
And a big wooden table all laid out for tea

I wish i had a window over the bay
And a dreamy eyed cow to fill my milking pail
I wish i had a cockerel to raise me at dawn
And a little bed to sleep in when the curtains are drawn

Vashti Bunyan, from the album "Just Another Diamond Day" (2006)

These Fleeting Moments

2009-01-16T23:46:00.002+02:00

Black Tape For A Blue Girl - "A Chaos of Desire" (1991)